I’m not sure where it came from or why it came when it did.
All I know is that I rolled over and thought,”Not you.”
I wished it was anyone but you.
I might have had someone else in mind, vaguely. Because there is someone else.
There is someone else who always comes at the right time.
It’s as if God pokes him in his side and says now and he answers the call.
Sometimes he says he doesn’t know why. But he knows.
Sometimes he says it’s not right. Yet it is.
Sometimes he says it’s inconvenient. That’s true, too.
Sometimes he says it would be perfect. It’s not. Nothing is ever perfect, love.
Then there is the other one. This one has perfect timing, too. God doesn’t just offer one solution. He offers choice. You decide. Take it or leave it. Risk it or don’t.
This one I share everything with. This one comes with no holds barred. This one gets the truth.
For the last two days I have felt free and light. To the threats, I stood my ground. I offer love with my whole heart open, for the first time. Now it is over.
Now we begin.