Moving into the new year, there seemed to be an unprecedented shift that actually coincided with the January 1 and 2 date.
I had a night of tossing and turning and constant waking. I was literally throwing myself around the bed, rolling around from end to end, which I don’t recall ever happening before.
In the dream, I was shown a meter that looked a bit like a list of files on a computer. There were three items. I was thrown back into the dream state a number of times and each time I would be shown the meter again, like we were checking on how much progress I made. Finally, the screen was cleared of files and I had one final dream. When I woke from it, from my dream within a dream, there was a brand new item on the screen. This time I was allowed to see the name of the file. Now I know what I need to work on next.
Funny enough, I was already consciously aware of that becoming an issue in my life. A friend and I had been dancing around the theme for a while, and I’d been thinking I was a sounding board for them. But shadow dancing being what it is, and soul contracts being purposed to bring healing to life, it turned out that what I was actually doing was being shown that I had not mastered this theme in my own life. It was just beginning.
Purging The Physical = The Emotional = The Spiritual…
I was finally able to begin a purge on all of the extra stuff in my physical life, items around the home that I had wanted to take to the Goodwill and the library for someone else to use. I thought I was having a long bout of laziness, because every time I started to get up to work on it I’d sit right back down. It came to my attention eventually that I was being stopped from taking action, that the time wasn’t right.
It made no sense to me. When is a bad time to get rid of stuff you no longer need?? It must be energetically based, because I was shocked at how much there was and how difficult it was for me to drag it out, pack it up, and bring it out into the garage to eventually load it into the car or take it down the way-too-long driveway for disposal.
My husband and I had thrown out or given away just a ton of stuff a couple of years back when we thought we would have to move, so it felt like there couldn’t be that many items left especially since I regularly went through things and got rid of them. But no, still there was just a ton of stuff.
Where was Peter Walsh when you need him? I longed to have one of his crews come here and take every single thing out of the house and lay it on tarps on the driveway. Then I’d just direct them to bring the objects back in that I wanted, probably 5 to 10 percent, and the rest could magically disappear.
I felt like that was the only way I was going to find peace – the house had to hold a lot, lot less. As mundane as that is, it felt important.
The Divine Comedy We’re All Living
Likewise, sometimes people feel like they have left. I don’t mean that you can’t still work for them, live with them, or be friends, I just mean that they feel like your work together is done and they have moved on.
Except, sometimes that’s a mis-read of the situation. You’ve ended one round of your energy exchange and are going deeper into another level of soul work. The reasons we come together can be varied and multi-faceted, and like The Divine Comedy, it is a journey and you might go through all nine levels of hell together, at the very least.
In the part of the story which is the Inferno, Dante is guided by the poet Virgil on their journey through the underworld. Each sin has a punishment, a symbolic fulfillment of a free will destiny choice made by that soul.
If you were subjected to Dante in school as I was, you may recall the fortune tellers in the eighth circle of hell, Fraud, who were made to walk around with their heads on backward for the sins of tying to see what they were not privy to through ethical means. Apparently this made an impression upon me because to this day if I feel I am not meant to tread in certain territory, I won’t. Not even to help someone. Some things are not for us to know and they might as well have lamb’s blood above the doorway, that’s how clearly they are energetically marked.
Many times we get called on to be of service and it’s important to mark boundaries, both of you. When you find that the other person seems to have shut down or made a line in the sand that you cannot cross, don’t mistake that for a simple boundary. They may very well stand before you so you can see where you are locked out. That’s a reflection point for you, a time of mirroring, where they are truly being a guide to you, so you can see what you have to work on or where you are stuck. That exact point is where I found my dream and reality intersected, right at that wall where my friend showed me exactly what I have to learn, integrate and release. Funny when you think you’re helping them (and maybe you are) and they turn right around and hand you a gift.
Moral codes are funny things, too. You’d think that having a strong one would benefit you. I feel this way, with certainty, and always have. But then, that may turn out to be a major brick wall, a place where you think you have it all figured out and in fact you just have never explored there. You are a beginner. That is by design. These things happen when we are ready, having cleared the other levels of understanding necessary to reach this stage.
Witnesses and Guides, Archetypes Are A Piece Of Our Puzzle
The Witness is about observing from one’s own perspective. It is the place where one is fully in touch with and experiencing one’s own thoughts and feelings, not shutting them out. It is the place of “beginner’s mind”, of being open to experience moment-by-moment.
Even after we have been journeying for a long, long while, we sometimes get to a next stage or a fresh start, and that’s what I think the term Witness is referring to here.
I’d decided that this year my Word for the year should be something related to Writing or Writer, because that’s an area that feels ready to Go.
So it seemed fitting when my friend the professional writer, told me something yesterday.
“Writing is part of finding who we are and who we could be.”
What a journey.