The New Job – Wherever You Go, There You Are

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I wondered for a moment how I was going to keep up A Clear Sign since I just returned to work at a full-time day job.

I wondered how the groceries would get bought on time, how the house would clean itself, what the cats, dogs and goat would do without me all day, if my husband would remember to pick up the kids, who would make dinner every night, and if anyone would take my one son to his myriad of afternoon appointments.

At the end of the month, who would pay the company bills?  The personal bills?  What would happen to all the “stuff” of life that always seemed to require my endless time on the phone?

Last time I worked full-time I had an infant and a toddler.  I was sixty-three miles from home.  My personal life very clearly interfered with my work life.

This time I knew that everything that happened at the office had to relate to the office.  There would be no personal calls, no perusing the internet, no blog hopping, no Facebook time, no writing, no intuitive readings, no calls with my Psychic Sparks students.

Everywhere there was silence.

I did my first week.  I got a paycheck.

I only spoke to my husband when I checked in with him at lunch, or via text if he was unsure about the directions to get the kids.

All I had to do all day was…work.

I wandered the office, because you know I had to meet everyone and see what I was dealing with.  I am not saying I am a naturally good judge of character, because historically I haven’t been when it comes to the office.

This time though I had my intuition with me, and I just wanted to see how different the experience might be.

Totally different.

I’ve Been Here Before?

Turns out, I am a morning person (like the 4 or 5am variety) and the lights don’t get turned on there until 9 and really 10.  I was expecting a cubicle but I got an office.  The second I wandered into the bathroom I was practically bowled over by a sense of deja vu.

It was the floors.  Mexican tile.  The bumpy kind, like I had in my first house.

Then I noticed the windows.  They are that dark brown aluminum which is standard older Florida.

One of my coworkers showed me where the coffee cups were and the kitchen looks like it should be in a house, not an office.

Hanging on the wall was a Milton Avery print.  He is a fairly obscure American painter.  My favorite.  In fact there is amazingly eclectic art throughout the building, from racehorses to red couches to we-don’t-really-know-what-it-is.

That’s when I realized I had been here before.  Not literally.  Well, that, too – I had actually interviewed with the same two men in this same building a number of years ago.  What I had never seen was the interior I just described.  Yet I had seen it – last year, when I was asking my guides to show me a picture of where I was moving.

I meant my house.  Not my office.  Turns out we stayed in this house, against odds, and I suppose they knew that.  The clairvoyant image I had was of a kitchen with bumpy Mexican tile floors, and when I looked up, there was a dark brown aluminum window with kind of an odd, high pattern, two stories high.  This is a two-story office building.

The more I looked at the artwork, the more I knew the place was prepared for me, or where I was meant to be.

That sounds funny, I know.  How often do you walk into a place that has quirks that are to your specific obscure taste, though?

The people are not your standard set of coworkers.  They are not the usual suspects of the lost, the salesmen, the corporate head, the HR yes-people.  They are none of those things.

Keeping Yourself In Mind

I have always had trouble with simple things.  Ask me to produce an auto ID card at 4:58 and I freak out.  Anyone else would just push a button.  Not me – something always goes wrong somehow.

Ask me to negotiate a billion dollar property portfolio.  Trouble with your loss projections?  Need someone who can do manuscript wording with London?  I am your woman.

I’m not sure if that makes me smart or an idiot, because it’s all one-sided with me.  In this job, I have to be able to do all of those things and everything in between, because there aren’t assistants and assistants to the assistants here.  I can’t just make the deal and hand instructions to the staff to input it.  I’ll figure it out eventually.  Hopefully.

So I’m still me, quirks, competencies, incompetencies and all…but I didn’t feel like myself.  The three years I spent immersed in spirituality and quiet really did profoundly change me, but I didn’t realize it until I was back in the day-to-day work groove.  I just don’t see the tasks and interactions the same way anymore.

On The Home Front With The Goat

In the interim, all was quiet at home, as well.

One day I got home before everyone else and I didn’t know what to do with myself.  Silence, at the wrong time of day for it.

God love Mercury Retrograde.  Not only did my car break down spectacularly week before last, but this week the “” key on my husband’s keyboard broke.  You can’t see what key that is because I am using my husband’s laptop.

I’m using my husband’s laptop because my laptop completely died.

Naturally, I suspect Goatie, because he had just been chewing his way through all the cords, and because he’s usually the cause of most everything.  I ordered a new adapter and charger because I am hoping against hope that’s all that’s wrong with it.  It took 52 years to find and order a new adapter, because my husband’s laptop has Windows 8 and is not a touch screen, and it is the most non-intuitive thing I have ever used.  It makes zero sense.

Those of you who access your blogs through a reader will know that Google Reader closed shop.  My Feedly isn’t working right, and so I felt really disconnected from the blogs, the internet and the world in general.

Nothing Is The Same Anymore?  Must Have Been Time For A Change

The place where I work is in an industrial area with no immediate restaurants and there aren’t many people in the actual workplace, so everything has just been oddly quiet.

As far as work goes, I have never felt this certain that I was sent somewhere for a reason.  At this stage I have no sense of what that may be.  I doubt very much it’s work related – it has to be people related.  I just know I wouldn’t have been seeing images of the place in my head last year if I weren’t meant to be here for something.

The strangest part is trying to remember how I want to be in the world and not to be deceived by your standard everyday work aggravations.  I have to actively remember the spiritual aspect and I cannot afford to lose myself back to work monkey status.

It’s more integrated than I had expected.

It’s amazing how people reveal themselves to me in odd ways – just because now I have my intuition turned on.

Oh and if the ghosts could stop roaming the halls, that would be cool, too.

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  1. Hi Julie

    Sounds like you are exactly where you were meant to be. My daughter has always been extremely competent when working for someone else, in fact she was an over-achiever…but her personal life has been pretty disorganized. After many years she seems to have found a bit of a balance, but she is nothing like me or my husband with that aspect of her life.

    That is pretty awesome with your deja vu, it is surely a comforting sign and I would see how easy it would be to slip back into worker bee status and lose who you have become.

    It is nice to be caught up to date as to what you are doing. It shall be interesting how all this transpires for you. We keep drawing to us what we need or who we need.

    Mary
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  2. Anne McCarroll says:

    Follow the yellow brick road! Follow the yellow brick road!

    Good luck! It sounds like a smudge of “Event Horizon” and “Stargate” meets “Working Girl”. Knock em out!

  3. I’m so glad to hear how the new job etc has been going for you. I like the description of the office space, got to love that it fits you so well 🙂 I sat here thinking on it and I can definitely see how easy it would be slip back in to the old work mode and loose what you’ve gained insight and intuitively -wise.
    I hope you will fill us in on the ghosts… that just left it hanging!
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  4. Julie, I was thinking of you this morning as I lit my customary lamp (with the second matchstick as usual). I wondered if you’d started work and how it was going for you. I was smiling as I stepped out of my tiny prayer room (yes I have one with all the deities) and my son asked me why I was grinning. So I told him I was thinking of a friend and he nodded sagely and went about his stuff.

    Do you carry your lunch with you?

    I’ve felt that sense of deja vu in the places I’ve worked. Even after a three year break when I got back to working outside the house, my office was part of a residence, the decor was things I loved, had or coveted. Cozy. I had the feeling I was put there for a reason in spite of the lousy pay. 😀 And I was right.

    I know that feeling about how-will-everything-happen-when-Iam-not-around. In fact, everything goes perfectly okay. For me, though, I function best under pressure and managed far better when I had a 9-6 and the home, cooking, being Mommy etc.

    The silence is the craziest part, no? And not knowing what to do with yourself when you’re home early – I suggest you get a powernap or soak your feet in warm water and chill with a cuppa.

    Hugs! I promise to pray that those ghosts go on indefinite vacation!

    Love you!

    Vidya
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    • Vidya, I love that little V nodded sagely. I can just see him doing it. I always feel like I am right there with you when you describe the doings in your abode 🙂

      I haven not gotten it together yet to bring my lunch with me, but obviously that is something that should be on the to-do list. There is a Nature’s Way Café that I drive to, and I am so bad that I always want to know,”Where’s the salt?!” They like to put sprouts on everything and I always get the frown when they ask,”Are all the vegetables OK?” and I tell them no, I just want lettuce, tomato, and onion (like a normal human being, not a sandwich that is 3/4 sprouts! Good heavens!)

      The whole experience is making me much more efficient, but I am basically a lazy sort who likes to sit and think for long periods and just “take it all in.” I am missing that and I am missing my gym, which I cannot figure out how to get in the schedule. I aim to drop off my laptop somewhere to be fied (ah, there is the broken letter! The power cord did not help) and then maybe I can write during lunch 🙂

      Thanks as always for keeping me in your prayers.

      • 😀 Oh gosh. And to think I used to carry sprouts as a snack in my box when I went to work! 😀 Alternating with carrots. Kept me from guzzling reboiled to death tea like the others. Funny. My laptop touch pad died too. I just got an external mouse and solved the problem for now, because the laptop guys just laughed at my laptop. (it has Vista as the OS).

        Gym – sigh. A walk or two around the block when you can spare 20 minutes? Or yoga.

        Hugs. Let’s just fantasize about crossing the road to that damn bakery opposite my house for now.
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        • Vidya, What can I say, I’m an ugly American raised on Jewish deli and cheeseburgers. I wish I loved sprouts and carrots! But I have a feeling we will like all the same things in the b-a-k-e-r-y!

  5. I was talking about deja vu with my friends recently, something that used to occur frequently in my life…not so much any more and I miss it…so glad it’s still with you Julie.

    How wonderful that you know for certain you’re exactly where you need to be and it’s also lovely that your purpose has yet to be revealed. Don’t you just love that?

    I’m excited to hear more.

    xoxo
    Elle
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    • Hi Elle, Thanks for that 🙂 I do intend to get more into the spiritual aspects soon enough, but for whatever reason this place has always been about “what did we experience and learn this week?” and right now, that’s work. I don’t get deju vu too often anymore either, more like synchronistic events and “just knowing” something should be or is a sign. They say deju vu is a sign that you’ve lived something before…or are crossing between dimensions.

  6. Hey, ghosts are people too! I’m glad you’re doing well at your new place. I have a feeling that may happen to me soon too, so I’m happy to hear it’s going well for you. I bet Goatie misses you though! 🙂
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    • Hi Jen, Well certainly ghosts are people, too! Or at least, they most certainly USED to be until they shuffled off this mortal coil and just started leaving energy prints everywhere they darn go 🙂

      I do so hope that’s what happens for you soon and yes the time does seem to be drawing nearer.

      I want that goat to tell me what REALLY happened to my laptop that day. Dead as a doornail, not a light, not a nothing. I am deciding on whether to ship it back to HP or try my luck with CompUSA or Office Depot. Other than that, there is a lot of poop out here and I want to strap a broom to his hooves!

  7. Isn’t that funny Julie that what you were envisioning for perhaps a new house was actually where you ended up working. I guess that was just meant to be and it sounds like everything is working out the way it should.

    I know this is what you wanted so everything has a way of working out the way it’s suppose to. You’ll probably being doing things soon enough without ever having to think about it. Back when I was in corporate America I preferred the smaller office environments so that did mean kind of doing a lot of stuff ourselves. That never bothered me cause I just love to learn. Oh and it didn’t hurt having one more experience on my resume either ya know!

    Congratulations and glad to hear that you’re settling in and all is going well.

    Now, enjoy your weekend because Monday will be here before you know it.

    ~Adrienne
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    • Hi Adrienne, I KNOW! What is with this weekend thing? I am supposed to rest from the work week, but what happens is I have to do all the laundry and clean the house and catch up with the kids and do the shopping…basically what I managed to do was take my life, shove a full time job on top of it all, and not get rid of any responsibilities. Ack. I need a Roomba and time to get to the gym!

  8. Julie T says:

    Julie,
    Congrats on your new job. Sounds like you are where you are suppose to be at this point in your life. What a nice feeling! It is interesting how our life paths change. I love hearing about yours and those who have commented. I feel like I am at one of those ‘signposts’…ready for change. I have worked in corporate America at the same company for 23 years. Hoping to transition..less corporate- more spiritual intuitive 🙂
    Enjoy and keep us posted!
    Julie T

    • Hi Julie, I am sending you all good wishes that you get that transition going very soon! I am not sure on my end how long this will last, we will just have to see how it goes.

  9. Hi Julie!
    You’ve been on my mind a lot lately and I hope the new job is going well for you. I’m still tripping about your having seen so much about it in your mind and now seeing it in the physical. I’ve done that a lot but sadly, my clairvoyance often doesn’t predict important things… it just predicts things. I hope however that yours is a tip off to a good thing.
    You may not know your purpose right off. Often it’s in hindsight that we see it clearly. I ventured back into the workforce after 10 years for a seasonal job last year. It wasn’t my cup of tea at all, but we needed the money at the time so badly to make up for the cut in hubby’s overtime. I tried to take some of the personal feelings out of it while at the same time, putting my own personal spin on it. I dealt with children all day–many, many, wild, wild children. And here I thought working outside of the home would get me a little break from that… 😉 Anyway, many were underprivileged kids who not only dealt with that but also family issues. A kind word, some eye contact, some personal attention, and maybe holding a little one’s hand went a long way, and by the end of any given day, I had more hugs than I knew what to do with! I finally realized that if any of it made even a little difference, it was worth it. Now I’m even considering another stint this fall.
    I know it’s difficult at first to find your new groove, what with all the added responsibilities and now, less than half the time to get them all done. I hate when people say “you just have to lower your standards and make peace with it”–ick. But with time it all starts to fall into place. Don’t forget to make time for YOU and take care of yourself. I like Vidya’s suggestion about walking. Sometimes if that’s all we have time for it can still do wonders, and that’s the only way I can meditate, because I cannot sit still. I think it’s better for clearing anyway.
    Well, I wish you all the best with it! Thanks for keeping us posted on how it’s going and finding a lesson in all of it to share with us.

    • Ayla, Trust me, my standards are so low at this point there is no putting them any lower! My days door to door are running so long that by the time I get dinner on the table and sit down it’s about 12 hours. Weekends are for cleaning and laundry and I am just SO TIRED. I think it will either be a go or a fail and the jury is still out! When the kids get back in school and the real running around starts then we will see what happens.

      Thanks for thinking of me 🙂

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